It’s currently 9:00 PM the night before this will be posted. In exactly 9 hours from now this blog post will be live and I’m being 1000% honest here… I don’t know what I am going to write about. I actually forgot about this until I was half way through my second workout for the day. It was my second 45 minute outdoor walk around the city I live in, as the sun went down and night emerged. Check out my Instagram post for today, Day 29 BTW, and you’ll be able to see some of the picture I took while pushing through.

Week 4 hasn’t been hard in terms of physically being able to achieve my daily goals. What it has been hard for me to do is find mental clarity on a lot of aspects of my life right now. I’ve run the gamut of emotions this week, and in the last 24 hours alone. That’s the thing though, 75 hard is meant to push you in that way. Forming better habits and making you work on yourself.

I’ve also found myself n multiple situations this past week where me from the past would have had complete and total breakdowns, whether it was angry tirades, massive bouts of depression and self-doubt, or uncontrollable urges to burn every bridge In my path. Small moments of those all showed in one way or another, but as a whole, I was able to breathe and focus my attention on thinking clearly and dealing with the challenges head on.

A light example of this, I have already mentioned. I forgot about writing this blog this week. Now is writing this a must? Is it some part of 75 Hard I haven’t discussed? No and no. But it is something that I’ve incorporated into challenging myself to form a good habit of doing, s with the rest of 75 hard. So when I realized I needed to do this still, and while I’d have rather just walked in the door, showered, and fallen asleep, I chose not to. Partly because I also had to read still.

Tomorrow will be a new hurdle for me, as it’s the first time my normal schedule will be changing. I’m leaving work at Noon tomorrow and going out of town until late tomorrow night. So while I’ll be able to get most everything done like normal before, it’ll be the second workout that I’ll need to figure out. I envision a second 2 walk day in a row is inbound. But we shall wait and see.

I’m thankful for 75 Hard this week because I can tell I am making some progress on my mental drive and critical thinking. I’m taking a longer and harder look at who I am and the way I handle and tackle moments in my life. It’s something I’ve been trying to do for awhile, but this has been able to help me focus on those things because, while I hate to admit it, I do matter.

NOTE: I finished my first book! Tonighti started The Let Them Theory by Mel Robbins!